I don't want to save us
I never was strong
You fight changes
That's all that I want
I'm good at turning pages
And counting all the bars
But for the rest I'll just move on
One night then another
We're feeling lonely with each other
You can blame a curse
Or say that I spun first
Monogamous entanglement is cold
We're sitting on our rafters
Afraid of the hereafter
With the dizzying sensation
That we're growing old
I sugarcoat it
I wet it down I change my mind
And I smooth the jagged edges
I blink back my tears all the time
We've got an RV in the yard
I'm writing love quotes on my arm
I'd rather fix this and get laid than play a cat in the parade
Sometimes I lose it
Stop trying to fit
I'm just as lost as anyone and tired of doing it right
I remember the time
Why won't it unwind
You believed I owned the moon and that I held it over our room
We were wide-eyed
The day we fell behind we were seduced by mermaid lies
When you're hungry and eluding debt
You're digging isn't finished yet
Drawn to the above the line
Where trends are trading all the time
It's not enough to say I'm flat
I'm going gray I'm born this way
I still trust my delusions
I'm losing faith in institutions
The monuments they shock me
'Cause so few still match behaviors that they praise
And the dad who dressed as Santa Claus died at 65
Was that enough
He made generations smile
And join together in a lie
Sometimes I lose it
Stop trying to fit
I'm just as lost as anyone and tired of doing it right
I remember the time
Why won't it unwind
You believed I owned the moon and that I held it over our room
We were wide-eyed
Looking back your thoughts were not a circus fight
You could lie still
And you'd hear all of mine
I am good at turning pages
And counting all the bars
But for the rest I'll just move on